Yes, it is a pun, a play on words with the year, something
we all might be tired of hearing by the end of 2020. However, I am going to start
out as if I am the only person who has thought of it, and it is a perfect
year-long vision statement for me. I’m sorry, I couldn’t resist one more pun.
Back when I was in my 20s, the future appeared to me as fog-enveloped
road. I knew the trip was a long one — at least I hoped it would be a long one —
but I couldn’t quite see very far ahead of me. As I made my way along this
road, there were days when the fog lifted, revealing stunning vistas. Other
days, I could barely inch along. In addition, the road was ever-changing;
smooth, level, and wide at some points; full of potholes, detours, and even the
occasional fender bender at others. Sometimes I traveled with a full load of family,
friends or coworkers, sometimes it was just me and a poorly plotted map.
In 2020 I have a significant birthday. Yes, I’ve passed
these artificial milestones before. However, this next one has been held out as
the “big one,” not only for the mileage I’ve covered, but all the things that
culture, society, and tradition expect of me. Things that generally fall into
the “should have done by now” category. I should have reduced my indebtedness
and obligations to barely anything by now. I should have squirreled away a huge
retirement fund for the “golden years.” I should have already experienced the
highest pinnacles career-wise in anticipation of “taking it easy.” To remind me, my snail
mail and my email is full of solicitations for Medicare supplements, reverse
mortgages, hearing aids and cemetery plots. But in my head I am setting fire to
all this, while the voice of Dylan Thomas is screaming at me “Do not go gentle
into that good night!”
The detours along my road have been long, circuitous, and
costly, both in matters of finance and time. I’ve reached a point in my life
where the expression “return on investment” has come to be a consideration of
where to invest myself. So, it is almost a message from the universe that I
approach a year whose number is so closely aligned with vision and time. As I prepare to rage against the dying of the
light, my answer to the question, “How will I clarify that vision, and where
will I spend my time?” is: “We’ll see.”
